our own special place…
our own special place…
Hey. I’m heading off to Vietnam today. My second home. Im going to see family members I haven’t seen for over 10 years. I had some rough months and I can’t wait to get outta here. This post is going to be a bit more personal, but this will also be the first entry of my documentary over there, which is not only about Vietnam but also about finding yourself. This will just be my own view to certain things. You don’t have to agree in any point but maybe one day, you’ll be in the same situation and this will help you.
Sometimes in life, you have to deal with a lot of things at the same time and you don’t even know where your head is, what your mind says. And then you need a time out. This time out is the most important thing. Take time for yourself. Think about yourself. Try to go to places which make you happy or remind you of something beautiful even if you are at your lowest point and you feel lost. These little things are the ones, that’ll help you step by step. I have to deal with the loss of two people which mean a lot to me. Like really really lots. And I know that I lost myself aswell somewhere along the way and my main task for myself, is to take care about that. How I can deal with my anxiety and worries. I always worried too much about stupid things. But honestly…I just want to be happy and make others happy. Some people don’t have the chance anymore… like one of the persons that I’ve lost in my life. I am a very complicated person when it comes to the point where you have to deal with death. I know its something completely natural. That’s LIFE. One day you have to leave…these are the rules. This picture is me sitting in front of my mates grave. It took me so long to finally go there…And I am proud that I did if before I leave for my trip to Vietnam. It’s hard to realise you’ll never ever see that person again. Laugh with each other, hang out and share an amazing friendship. I lost him while I was on the Crooks Tour. This totally kicked me out. Honest…I still haven’t completely realised it. It always takes me ages to put a hint behind a loss. I don’t wanna specify it more. In the end I just want you to know, that you have to take all the time that you need to get over it ( of course you’ll never get over it, because you will always miss someone who means alot to you). It’s important to have people behind your back, where you can just be you and forget it for a while. People that think about something to make you happy. To make you worry less and less and find a way into your routine again. Together.
This journey is my most important adventure to date. It’s about soulsearching and mindfulness. I am happy not to have any internet and just my music and my cameras. I will put all of my sadness into my pictures and I’m going to write a whole documentary about it. As soon as I am back I will upload everything here. You don’t have to be interested in it, but as I said, maybe one day, you’ll be in the same situation, and maybe this will help you. Maybe not. Noone knows.
So far, I just want you to know that you should be thankful to be here. We all should appreciate the gift of life and do the best out of it. Love each other and be there for each other either in good or in bad times. It will give you strength and you can grow together and create something wonderful. You don’t have to be happy all the time. There would be no balance in life. But it’s true: worry less, laugh more and life will treat you good.
Also I am sorry that it took me soooooo long to upload the Crooks tour video. But it’s going the be online in a few minutes….hopefully =P
Take care and enjoy every day to the fullest.
PS: Do yourself a favour and listen to the album which helped me a lot in the last months. It’s Tides From Nebula’s - Eternal Movement. Everytime I listen to it I lose myself in something wonderful. It’s funny…it makes me happy and sad at the same time. I wanna run and be free but at the same time I just wanna be snuggled up in my bed. My mind is empty and full of thoughts at the same time. I wanna laugh, I wanna cry…and so on…it’s just pure perfection. Especially the song :
EMPTINESS OF YOURS AND MINE.
Expire - Sleep Lost (x)
10. (by davidgrigoryan 87)
…until we know each others’ insides completely.
i need this bathroom in my life